2020…

2020… what do you have in store for me!

I have been thinking a lot about what I’m doing with this blog… I am not a blogger!!! But i am an artist… so lets do this art blog, and try to do it once a week, 52 blogs is much easier to wrap my head around than 366 days!

I am going to focus on textiles this year, see how far in the art world my new found love for embroidery is going to take me, it seems to be what I am good at

I am going to stop seeing what other people can do and get depressed when i know that i can’t do it, it’s just not my gift, not my style, not who i am

I am going to try to stop getting upset when i am looked over as an artist by those around me, because i am not the “traditional” artist that they understand

I am going to try and learn how this blogging thing works, and try to post at least once a week

So here’s to a new year, a year in discovering who i am, getting my work out there, stopping comparing myself to other artists (in a bad way), letting go and just BE ME

~mary e. johnson-mason

1,000 square feet

This may sound weird… but i feel like i lost a loved one today, now you may be thinking that if I’m thinking that than i don’t really know how that feels but believe me i know better than most.

1,000 square feet, thats all i have to work with, all i have to live it, that may seem like a lot to some but you have to add in the 3 children, the husband, and the four legged animals that share in this 1,000 square foot space.

I took down my easel today, and now i feel like i am telling myself that I’m not a real artist, like i have to paint to be an artist, all the other things you do don’t count…

In truth i am probably better at textiles than i am at painting

In truth i seem to live in a place where my painting style is not cared for and that hurts,

In truth, when I’m in the room with another artist, a painter, and they are the ones that are called the artist, the one with a gift, and nothing is said to me… it makes you question yourself, question if you really are good enough, and than i have to remember that my paintings have been shown in galleries so i can’t be all that bad.

This chapter of my life is not the chapter that allowns me to paint, to experiment like i want to, so i feel like i have lost a loved one, a part of me is missing.

Many people will not understand, heck my husband doesn’t understand, he didn’t even notice the big empty space in the living room, but that does not mean that the feelings are not real,

I need to focus on embroidery, i need to experiment and paint with thread.

On etsy October 2019

Here is a small look at some of the new listings at my etsy store inspiredbyhenry.etsy.com

For those of you who don’t know me which I’m sure is MANY of you, i’m trying to make things work!

I have three young children as well as a yard and house full of animals, you city folk would say I have a small farm, while you country folk would say I’m just pretending.

My husband is gone a lot so it’s just me and the kids and all the added extras who are loved just as much as my kids.

Back in 2017 I had a baby boy who needed to be dressed up, and really have you seen the cost of dress up clothes for baby boys!!! So i got to thinking i can get a couple of onesies and some fabric and make my own dress up clothes and than it happened, people started asking for their own and so I started inspired by henry.

There is sadness to this story that I’m not yet ready to share, don’t worry it has nothing to do with my sweet boy.

So take a look and know that in doing so you really are helping a mama out who is in some hardship!