1,000 square feet

This may sound weird… but i feel like i lost a loved one today, now you may be thinking that if I’m thinking that than i don’t really know how that feels but believe me i know better than most.

1,000 square feet, thats all i have to work with, all i have to live it, that may seem like a lot to some but you have to add in the 3 children, the husband, and the four legged animals that share in this 1,000 square foot space.

I took down my easel today, and now i feel like i am telling myself that I’m not a real artist, like i have to paint to be an artist, all the other things you do don’t count…

In truth i am probably better at textiles than i am at painting

In truth i seem to live in a place where my painting style is not cared for and that hurts,

In truth, when I’m in the room with another artist, a painter, and they are the ones that are called the artist, the one with a gift, and nothing is said to me… it makes you question yourself, question if you really are good enough, and than i have to remember that my paintings have been shown in galleries so i can’t be all that bad.

This chapter of my life is not the chapter that allowns me to paint, to experiment like i want to, so i feel like i have lost a loved one, a part of me is missing.

Many people will not understand, heck my husband doesn’t understand, he didn’t even notice the big empty space in the living room, but that does not mean that the feelings are not real,

I need to focus on embroidery, i need to experiment and paint with thread.

Fiber festival!!! Oct 2019

Such an amazing weekend!!!

I can’t remember the last time i was by myself without my 3 littles (8, 4, &2). But this past Sunday my husband was home and i took off the a fiber festival before he could change his mind and say no!

Raw Icelandic wool fleece that still needs to be washed (that’s a whole blog post waiting to happen)
Lamb sandwich YES PLEASE!!!
Alpaca Wool, Silk nylon, firestar
My new bottoms whorl spinner
My other new bottom whorl spinner
Some more alpaca

I am not very good at spinning yet but oh do i love it, it is such a good way to relieve some stress and to know that the final product is all from my hands!

I have washed the raw wool and am waiting on it to dry so i can go onto the next step in turning it into yarn, and i can’t wait!!

More to come later, the children are being much to quite

~Mejm