1,000 square feet

This may sound weird… but i feel like i lost a loved one today, now you may be thinking that if I’m thinking that than i don’t really know how that feels but believe me i know better than most.

1,000 square feet, thats all i have to work with, all i have to live it, that may seem like a lot to some but you have to add in the 3 children, the husband, and the four legged animals that share in this 1,000 square foot space.

I took down my easel today, and now i feel like i am telling myself that I’m not a real artist, like i have to paint to be an artist, all the other things you do don’t count…

In truth i am probably better at textiles than i am at painting

In truth i seem to live in a place where my painting style is not cared for and that hurts,

In truth, when I’m in the room with another artist, a painter, and they are the ones that are called the artist, the one with a gift, and nothing is said to me… it makes you question yourself, question if you really are good enough, and than i have to remember that my paintings have been shown in galleries so i can’t be all that bad.

This chapter of my life is not the chapter that allowns me to paint, to experiment like i want to, so i feel like i have lost a loved one, a part of me is missing.

Many people will not understand, heck my husband doesn’t understand, he didn’t even notice the big empty space in the living room, but that does not mean that the feelings are not real,

I need to focus on embroidery, i need to experiment and paint with thread.

Mom life

The day after this session I got the flu for a week, as soon as I’m over that I have a respiratory thing going on and have lost my voice, this morning I am finally able to start editing (who needs a voice to do that!) with a 2 year climbing all over me and my 4 & 8 year endlessly repeating “mommy” or “STOP IT” and me trying to say “stop touching!” or “get that out of your mouth!” Did I mention that my laptop of 10+ years decided to stop working this week so I had to get the “big boy” out of storage yesterday, and now since it’s a “new” thing I can’t keep the kids away! Here’s to early Saturday morning editing all while moming it with biscuits & gravy and fresh eggs for breakfast, putting wood in the stove so we don’t freeze, changing diapers, and trying not to yell, keep 3 kiddos unhurt, all while trying to get sick or at least sicker than I already am. I forgot, I’m going on 4 hours of sleep and tonight is the time change… also why do they get up so early and so well on Saturday and not school days 🤷🏼‍♀️ I almost forgot I need to go let the chickens and ducks out and feed the goats #momlife #neverending #thisulgybeautifullifeilive💕 #joysoflovinginasmallhouse #familyphotographer #isitbedtimeyet #countrylife #woodstovelife #girlandboymama💜💜💙

Taylor Family 10.2019

Another amazing family session is in the books for the Taylor family.

I love this family, and am very blessed that I have been invited to be a part of it from “I will”

It is amazing to see families grow, what new lives they bring into this world. What things they are doing, the love that they are sending out.

I can’t wait to see what comes next for them, and I can’t wait to be a part of it.

Fiber festival!!! Oct 2019

Such an amazing weekend!!!

I can’t remember the last time i was by myself without my 3 littles (8, 4, &2). But this past Sunday my husband was home and i took off the a fiber festival before he could change his mind and say no!

Raw Icelandic wool fleece that still needs to be washed (that’s a whole blog post waiting to happen)
Lamb sandwich YES PLEASE!!!
Alpaca Wool, Silk nylon, firestar
My new bottoms whorl spinner
My other new bottom whorl spinner
Some more alpaca

I am not very good at spinning yet but oh do i love it, it is such a good way to relieve some stress and to know that the final product is all from my hands!

I have washed the raw wool and am waiting on it to dry so i can go onto the next step in turning it into yarn, and i can’t wait!!

More to come later, the children are being much to quite

~Mejm

First Friday… October 2019

Don’t mind the misplaced words, future embroidery project

Two posts in one day! I might be getting the hang of this! Don’t count on it… 😂

I went to first Friday this evening, you know where the local art galleries have their openings, I did not have anything in a show this go round, but one of my former professors was in a show, so i put the 3 chickadees in the car and dove an hour just to see the work of someone that i used to know.

I have mixed feeling…

The work was amazing…

My children where… not so amazing

8, 4, and 2 not very good ages to have out together, especially when the oldest is board and the other two feed off of her, that and all the sugar they seemed to have consumed in such a short time!

And I’m going to be honest with whoever you are that is reading this, once again i feel like I’m pretending at this artist thing…

I hate how I have to remind myself that i am an artist… that people like my work, i have a very long list of shows where the juror picked my work over so many others. So why do i feel this way!!! Why do I feel like my art is not good enough!? Why do I feel like I’m pretending that i’m an artist?! Maybe if I was around more artists I would feel different?

I had to pick up work that was shown in two past shows, and I found myself trying to hide it form the people that where there, like it didn’t even come close! I mean really how can you compare embroidery that is TINY to these amazing paintings that i could fit 100 or more of my works in? You can’t! I have to remind myself of that!

I want to paint so badly, and if I had the space, the child free space, the toddler free I put everything in my mouth space, than I really think that I could do great things, I have before so why not again!

This session that I’m in… this two bedroom 1,000 square foot 3 children session is not a painting session!

I feel like I’m just doing a craft… I need to stop feeling that way… but how!!!

How do you stop feeling that way when everything you learned in college is telling you that you are doing a craft not an art, but every time i have entered said “craft” into a show it has gotten in…

I need to stop now, it’s late, and my mind tends to wonder… I wish i could be painting right now, it’s Friday night and everyone is asleep, but i have no space to wait for paint to dry…

I need to remember that just because it is small and fits in my bag… my embroidery is no less important… is no less art… than all of the larger paintings hanging on the wall…

Just some rambling from an artist who isn’t feeling much like an artist…

~Mejm

On etsy October 2019

Here is a small look at some of the new listings at my etsy store inspiredbyhenry.etsy.com

For those of you who don’t know me which I’m sure is MANY of you, i’m trying to make things work!

I have three young children as well as a yard and house full of animals, you city folk would say I have a small farm, while you country folk would say I’m just pretending.

My husband is gone a lot so it’s just me and the kids and all the added extras who are loved just as much as my kids.

Back in 2017 I had a baby boy who needed to be dressed up, and really have you seen the cost of dress up clothes for baby boys!!! So i got to thinking i can get a couple of onesies and some fabric and make my own dress up clothes and than it happened, people started asking for their own and so I started inspired by henry.

There is sadness to this story that I’m not yet ready to share, don’t worry it has nothing to do with my sweet boy.

So take a look and know that in doing so you really are helping a mama out who is in some hardship!