Regrets…

Today is a hard day that seems to always catch me off guard and makes me think of all the things that I should have done 3 years ago.

3 years ago…

3 years ago the day seemed just as hot as it is today, maybe that is because I was 9 months pregnant and my daughter was in the local 4h fair. I should have taken more photos, I should have been nicer, I should have not been acting like a very hot, very cranky, very pregnant with third child person. If I could go back to today 3 years ago and change things I would, oh how I would change things…

You see, 3 years ago was the last time I saw my dad, he died less than a month later, in fact it was the same day that my son was born, that is a whole different post.

I wish I had taken more photos of him with the girls that day, I don’t think I took any… I wish I had gotten a photo of the two of us… none where taken… I wish I had taken more photos with him and my mom… once again I didn’t take any… me a photographer didn’t take any photos, and I kick myself almost everyday when I think about it.

I still have the memory of dad and mom sitting on a bench under one of the tents taking a break from the heat giving each other a little peck, their anniversary was the day before. I wish I had more memories from that day…

I could go on and on about the guilt and what I should have done and how I should have acted differently, but who wants to read a pity party… I just needed to get some words out…

Take that photo, even if you don’t like the way you look, the person who loves you and doesn’t care will thank you later, let that photo be taken of you for the same reason, you can’t get back today… all of us where given a certain amount of time in this life, and it’s one thing that you can’t add more time to, we are all running out of it. So be nice, take that photo, give that hug, give that extra moment because you don’t know if it is your last, try not to yell at your kids, because thats not how you want your last moments with them to be. Be kind, be gentle, be loving…

~mary e. J mason

One thought on “Regrets…

  1. Thanks for the timely reminder to DO IT NOW! We should never miss the chance to build a memory with someone we love. Having said that, being nine months pregnant and hot and sweaty seem to be adequate justification for being just a bit self-focused. Forgive yourself.

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